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national day! (i have friends -.-")

yesterday was the best national day i've ever had. (as far as i can remember that is, which might not be very long considering my ability to remember things)

the party started out very amusingly. gen said she couldn't make it cos of chinese pt. and wenny was busy. ge was busy marching at ndp parade (haha i didn't manage to spot her on tv tho). zhiing had chinese pt too. nicyeo and joo said they might pop by. haha so at 5pm, when all my sisters' friends had started streaming in. and my brother's friends had come too. i just sat there like some loner. clearly i had submitted to the fact that i was the only sibling without any friends there. how loser right? so i hung around penny's friends- all guys. they were caught up in ps2- xmen. amazingly, i'd never played that, even though it was ours. they asked some qtns about the characters which penny and i were hardly able to answer. amusing really. i kept on losing to wolverine. that guy (hahn was it, nicholas' cousin or something) was good. apparently his first time playing vid games, which definately explains his enthusiasm for it, they played till midnight btw. hm then i got bored and trooped over to my brother's circle of friends. boring once again. so i just stuffed my face with junk food. i swear, our house has never contained so much junk food before. the way the chips just presented themselves at me, begging to be eaten- simply unforgettable. (i am currently dealing with the aftermath of stuffing your face, very disgusted at me, i feel fatter than ever)

i was feeling so left out. and my sisters weren't making it any easier for me. here's what they said to their friends when i was introed.
pris: this is my sister, she has no friends so you must be nice to her okay?
pen: meet my sis, uh, she doesn't have any friends.
wow, you could imagine how happy i was right?

exciting part now! so like my dad suddenly says, "your friends are here" (he stresses on friends, because by now, every person in the house thinks i have NO friends, at all) and you shld have seen the reactions of every member of the family when they came down. all of them had this very shocked look on their faces, that read omg she has friends. they all went "WOW you're FRIENDS came" heheh. i think joo and nic were highly amused.

yay so joo and nicyeo came along and i was so happy! we sat by the pool, dipped our feet in the water. so nice. heheh. then after a while we went to the study and attempted a round of "bluff", while discussing pb stuff. was so fun. ahah omg i loved it. sorry it was just really really amazing to catch up. talk about pb stuff.. wow. sorry if i sound like a lunatic but it was just. magical? haha one-ninth of fielmente. we want a batch sleepover! woohoo.

went to watch dumb videos -coughs. had dinner and then nicyeo left. so happy she came! heheheh. !!! okay sorry. then joo and i went to the study to talk more. was funfunfun. ate chocs and i went a bit high. chocolates- i'm addicted. only because we actually have chocolates available to us now. it's amazing. so much junk food i can't believe it. heheh. i was paranoid that i'd get a sore throat from all the chocs so i drank 4 bottles of water before going to bed. HAHAH i am weird. went to the toilet so many times! funny.

ahh yesterday was nice (: thankyou teo wan joo and nicole yeo yi for coming. ahha. we didn't even catch a single bit of the parade but it was so much fun. whoppee.

now we have hidden stock of junk food at home. my younger sis insists on hiding it. so i have to try to resist temptation now. dang.

haha i am still quite irritated at the serene. i think it's amazing how manipulative people get... just to put on this front and try to get people to admire them. wth lah. sucking up to power just isn't the way. neither is lying. nobody loses out but yourself. i'd ram all your lies down your ungrateful throat.

okay i hope that all this irritation is purely subjective. haha okay act 4 pygmalion, once again running through my head like a broken record.

i'm stuffed from all that bingeing yesterday. wonder if i'll be able to run later.. mwahah.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

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